What's Mine is Yours

I saw a music video to the song "What's Mine is Yours" by Katherine Nelson a few months ago on facebook.  I was recently reminded of the song and how much I liked it (or related to it) when my dear friend, Shanna Mele, sent me Katherine Nelson's CD for Tace's birthday with this song on it.  The lyrics, especially the first verse, really hit home.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dhMfQVBpoSY

What's Mine is Yours
Counting down days since nine months last summer
From the baby quilts to the sunshine light-switch cover
All the plans she made
Wall-papered dreams she made for him someday

The doctor hardly glanced her way and shut off the monitor
As he walked out the door he said "You're young, there'll be others"
No sirens or loud screams
No rushing or comforting
It was just over

On the longest road toward home
She parked in the church lot and cried
And said

What's mine is yours
It's always been
What slips through my hands has your fingerprints on it
I'm letting go
Remembering
Though Heaven's doors feel shut they're wide open
What's mine is yours

Teenage girl clinging to the gates of mercy
Holding the weight of the world and her newborn baby
Trying her best to be brave
Wrapped in hope giving him away to a longing family

When her courage met their eyes she saw
Somehow her baby was born to be in their arms
And cried

What's mine is yours
It's always been
What slips through my hands has your fingerprints on it
I'm letting go
Remembering
Though Heaven's doors feel shut they're wide open
What's mine is yours.

In this life we come and go and say goodbye
But there's more than we can see with our own eyes
And when my faith's a thread-bare blanket and I can't take it anymore
I remember
What's mine is yours

I'm letting go
Remembering
Though Heaven's doors feel shut they're wide open
What's mine is yours


Listening to this song brings back so many memories.  The whole first verse completely describes our situation.  We were so excited for Tace to get here.  We had bought all the baby stuff we would need, his room was decorated, etc.  Then, in a moment, everything changed so completely.  There were no sirens or loud screams......the world kept spinning just as it always had for everyone else.....yet for us, our lives had been forever altered and our hopes and dreams shattered.  Very few people ever got to meet and hold our sweet boy....Brian and I, both our parents, and my brother Trevor who was at the hospital with us (and the doctors and nurses who cared for us). To some his memory may be long since passed......yet for us, we think of him every single day.  I can relate to the phrase "Though Heaven's doors feel shut they're wide open."  There are times when it may feel like Heaven's doors are shut because of this trial we are facing; however, if we stop to count our blessings and recognize all the help and comfort we've received, we will know that Heaven's doors really are wide open.  Heavenly Father has been pouring out His love to us throughout this past year.  We wouldn't have made it this far without Him and the promises and covenants we have made through Him.  As I listen to this song, and think about how we have been watched over, I do need to remember that what's mine is His.....my little Tace was His before he was mine, and He loves him too.....more perfectly and completely than I ever could (which is difficult to comprehend).

So in conclusion, remember that what is ours is also His.....it always has been and ever will be.  And, He will always take care of those things we hold most dear, just as He is taking care of our sweet little Tace.  For now, we will hold Tace in our hearts while Heavenly Father holds him in His arms.