It's a Tace Day

We think about Tace every day, but some days are definitely Tace days.  Today is one of those days.  Our little angel is 9 months old today.  I can't believe it has been almost a year already...  

My dearest Tace,

    I want to take a moment and write to you and tell you how much I love you.  You are on my mind and in my heart constantly.  There have been many things going on lately that have made me think of you even more than I normally do. 

    I'm sure you have met Axton by now...(I like to think the two of you are best friends just like your daddy's are.)  His parents, Morgan and Kacee, are some of Mommy and Daddy's best friends.  Our hearts broke when we heard that they lost Ax in much the same way that we lost you.  Tace, losing you has been the hardest trial we have ever had to face.  I truly do know that you have a special mission to serve and that you are needed on the other side of the veil right now, but knowing that doesn't make me miss you any less.  ...And now we are heartbroken that our friends have to experience this same loss.  However, it was a great comfort to all of us that you were there to welcome Axton on the other side. The four of us wish more than anything that the two of you could be here with us now, but if you can't be, we are grateful to have such amazing guardian angels watching over us. 

Two amazing dads with two amazing boys .

   We have also been hoping to receive the news that one of your siblings was on their way to join our family.  Your brothers and sisters will never replace you Tace...they couldn't.  But, your daddy and I long to have another little one in our home.  We did not get nearly as much time with you as we had hoped and dreamed of.  We got you so easily and now we are having to learn a lesson on patience as we continue to wait and hope for another little one.  If you could give one of them a little push and let them know we're ready for them that would be great! ;). Thanks for watching over all of them until they join our family.  You are already an amazing big brother and a great example to them.

   Another experience that made me think of you happened today.  I had the opportunity to hold your cousin Jaxon today (actually second cousin).  He is adorable!  It felt so good to hold him close.  It made me wish I could hold you close, even for just a few moments.

   Tace, one of my favorite places to be right now is in the temple.  I love it because the spirit is so strong and the veil is so thin at times.  I know that of all the places on earth, this is where I can be closest to you.  While I am there I like to close my eyes and imagine your little arms around my neck :). Sometimes I almost feel as though they are really there.  It is the best feeling in the whole world!  I can't wait until I can hug you for real!

   Oh Tace we miss you so much!  Know that we love you with all our hearts!   Please be close to us as often as possible and let us feel of your presence when you are there.

With all the love I possess,

Mommy