"Sometimes, that mountain doesn't move."

Brian's sister, Nicole, sent us this Charley Jenkins music video today and I loved the message that he portrayed.  (Thanks Nicole!)  Charley Jenkins is from our hometown of Roosevelt, Utah so it almost makes it seem more personal coming from him.  Thanks Charley for the beautiful and inspiring song.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J44vAOp1BmM&feature=youtu.be&app=desktop

That Mountain—Charley Jenkins

A young bride on her knees asking God, “Please, don’t let it rain.”

With the groom and family outside waiting, on her wedding day.

“Please let the clouds roll by.  Oh, give us clear blue skies,” she prays.

Down the road a few miles out of town a farmer’s on his knees.

His crops are dying in the fields.  They won’t last another week.

“Don’t let the clouds pass by.  Let rain drops fill the sky,” he prays.

Sometimes all we see is our slice of reality. 

And things are not as simple as they seem to be.

There’s times, hard as we pray, heaven has another way.

And even though there’s nothing faith can’t do,

Sometimes, that mountain doesn't move.

Gathered in a waiting room, the family hopes that the doctor’s wrong,

When he says machines have kept her here, but she’s already gone.

“Our daughter’s way too young.  Don’t let her days be done,” they pray.

Three floors up, just down the hall, a little one’s shutting down.

He’s been the first name on that list…going on six months now.

“Please let this be the day a new heart’s on its way,” he prays.

Sometimes all we see is our slice of reality. 

And things are not as simple as they seem to be.

There’s times, hard as we pray, heaven has another way.

And even though there’s nothing faith can’t do,

Sometimes, that mountain doesn't move.

I hope one day I can see all the strokes in the masterpiece.

And finally understand how they fit in the master plan.
(He's in the Roosevelt Cemetary in this scene...not far from where our little Tace's headstone is at.)

Sometimes all we see is our slice of reality. 

And things are not as simple as they seem to be.

It’s hard when we pray and heaven has another way.

And even though there’s nothing faith can’t do,

He knows what’s best for me and you,

And that mountain doesn't move.

I loved this message.  Part of it was hard to hear because I want the things I am praying for so badly, but I do know that our Heavenly Father has a plan prepared for us.  I love the chorus.  It is so true that often all we can see is "Our slice of reality."  It is hard to see the big picture and the overall master plan while we are here on earth.  My slice of reality really is all I can see, and right now our reality is that we have been facing some pretty big trials.  First, we lost our little Tace, which is a hard enough trial to face on its own.  And now, we're having to wait much longer than we hoped to welcome another child into our home.  Both are difficult trials to face....and especially both at the same time.  

Sometimes we may feel like our prayers are not being heard because we are not receiving the answers we are praying for.  It is hard when we are exercising our faith, doing what we are supposed to, and when we know that all things are possible through faith in our Savior...It's hard to not see the results of that faith in the manner that we desire.  But like this song said, "There's times, hard as we pray, heaven has another way. And even though there's nothing faith can't do, sometimes, that mountain doesn't move."  And I love what he adds in to the last chorus, "It's hard when we pray and heaven has another way.  And even though there's nothing faith can't do, He knows what's best for me and you, and that mountain doesn't move."  

We definitely have some mountains in front of us....and we've been praying that they will move.  However, it may not be time for those mountains to move.  I think we can continue to pray for them to move, but perhaps we also need to focus on praying for the strength to climb those mountains.  These trials are obviously happening for a reason....do I understand that reason? No.  Do I like it?  No....I'd much rather not be facing these trials.  But, I do trust in my Heavenly Father.  I have a very strong testimony that he loves me and he loves Brian.  He wants what is best for us.  It's hard to see that this pain and heartache is what is best for us, but there must be a higher plan.  

There is a talk by one of the general authorities that talks about a young married couple who recently found out that the husband has cancer.  They came to this general authority for a blessing.  He asked the young couple, "Do you have faith to be healed?"  They fervently responded that they did.  He then asked them, "Do you also have faith not to be healed?"

That really hit me.  I know that all things are possible through faith and I have a firm testimony that Heavenly Father can bless us with those blessings that we most desire.  But do I have the faith to not receive those blessings if it is not in His will at this time?  ...It really gave me something to think about.  I realized that we need to have faith to move forward, no matter what the path ahead of us may be (much easier said than done).  ...So I will work on that faith. This doesn't mean that I have lost faith and hope that we can receive those desired blessing, but I need to have the faith to move forward if we are not entitled to those blessings at this time.  Perhaps it is not time for this mountain to move.