A little bit of Heaven...

Tace has been on my mind a lot lately. The last several days have been a bit rough as we've transitioned into March. This month should have been so full of happy events...Tace's birth being at the top of the list. I should be 36 weeks pregnant right now and we should be welcoming our little boy into our home at the end of this month....instead, we are working on designing his headstone. I never would have imagined that life would turn completely upside down so suddenly. So this week my heart has been aching. I see people out running with strollers and I think of our stroller that is being stored in a closet rather than being used. I see all the people that were due around the same time as me welcoming their little ones into their home...and I sit here with empty arms. It is hard...and the coming of this month and his approaching due date have brought many of these emotions full circle again. We miss him more than we can ever explain.

This past weekend was fast Sunday and Brian and I began our fast together Saturday evening. We have both been having a harder time with the coming of this month, so one of the things we fasted for was for help and strength to make it through the month of March and the hard times that will come as his due date approaches. As we continued to fast and attend our church meetings on Sunday, I felt the peace start to seep into my heart. I thought back to a quote our friends John and Erin Goodman gave us after Tace passed away. It says:

"Because someone we love is in heaven, there is a little bit of heaven in our home."

This is so true. Because our sweet Tace is in heaven, there is a little bit of heaven in our home. I know that he is close by as often as he can be. And, I also know that we try even harder to do what is right and have the spirit in our home because we want to be worthy to be with him again. His influence in our lives truly is a "bit of heaven". What better way to teach our future children about the Plan of Salvation is there than to teach them about Tace and how we all need to work hard to be righteous so we can be reunited with him again.

We both love and miss Tace with all our hearts, but we are so grateful that we get to have him as part of our eternal family. There are still hard days, and there always will be....But when those days and moments come, we need to continue to remember that he is still ours and he is still with us. He is the "little bit of heaven" in our home.